I just had a friend tell me at supper in the midst of talking about everything under the sun that she noticed I love to eat. That gave me pause. I do love to eat. Too much. Could this be an idol in my life as well? I think I know the answer. I give food too much thought. I spend too much of our money on fast food. I think about what I am going to eat next while I am still eating something else. It is too important in my life. Going to the scale help me control the amount of food I ate in the past. Now that I am trying to not go to the scale, I want to use God as my monitor. I want to use the natural system He gave me in my body to know when I am hungry and know when I am full. I want to trust Him with that. Okay, I realize my idols are growing. Jesus, help me to stop wasting my time and money on food. Help my food be to do your will. Be my Bread of Life and my Living Water. Become more important while food becomes less important. Jesus change me from the inside out. I noticed today I started out thinking I wanted to run more so I could eat more......so yet another idol, running. I have purposely given up "long distance" running for a season so I won't use it to control my weight and control how much food I can have. Wow! Keep showing me stuff Jesus. I want to be purified. I want to be FREE to serve You and glorify you with my life. I need some "power washing" from the inside out. I trust you Jesus but I must admit I am a little scared. Keep me away from those wretched scales, so far so good only by your grace Jesus.
Fran
Hi Fran! Just wanted to say that I'm praying that God will strengthen you in this "arena". The Bible Study we are doing at church...Made to Crave....is so awesome, I think we have some extra books, let me know if you would like one...or better yet, there are about 15 of us that are meeting for the next 6 weeks on Thursday nights. You are not alone, thanks for sharing....just being open invites God to do a work in you...thanks! Brenda
ReplyDeleteGood luck in your quest to rid yourself of the scale. Have your tired to use another measurement tool. like a pair of jeans or a dress you'd like to wear?
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Fran, thank you so much for this! Where I don't struggle so much with weighting myself (I normally avoid that and force myself to every Monday), I have battled the big ugly sin of laziness and gluttony for years: not exercising and eating when I was upset, stressed, bored, sad... you name it! I hit 246 pounds this winter (this was 3 months after having Ethan) - I was horrified.
ReplyDeleteI'm learning a lot about going to God when I have the urge to eat when I'm not hungry or it isn't meal time. It is an every day journey to learn to drink from the well of living water (Jesus) instead of settling for trying to drink from the broken and empty cisterns we and world think/act will fulfill us.
I did a 60 day Bible study at www.settingcaptives.free this spring that helped a lot and gave me extra accountability. Though you and I battle food/exercise in different arenas, they have a couple online courses ("The Lords Table" and "In His Image") that address all of the above areas. I have also heard great things about "Made to Crave" (someone else mentioned it in your comments). It is a slow journey, and though I sometimes struggle against frustrated at results, my strive is not to make food or weight my God, but instead to be obedient to God in my eating and exercise habits to bring Him glory.
Praying for you - Jesus came to break our chains and set us captives free, one pound and scale at a time!