Day 13a

I haven't been able to run the past two days because I pulled a muscle in my back.  It has made me want to weigh myself, but I am not.  I haven't gone back to the gym since weighing myself last because it is too tempting to have the scale staring me in the face.  However, all can do all things through Him who gives me strength.  We will see.  I want to be wise about staying away from things that may be tempting while at the same time using my money well that I have spent on the gym.  I realized that running (even if it is intervals) cannot take the place of being faithful to what God has called me to.  I needed this little reminder(with not being able to run) that it is not about controlling externals.  It is about the heart.  I am having a hard time trying to find out what will be most honoring to God with my eating.  I need to really be seeking Him for wisdom on this instead of trying to figure it out myself.  I definitely know He doesn't want me to go to extremes.  He doesn't want me to be a glutton and He doesn't want me to starve myself either.  What is hardest for me is being consistent with something healthy.  I don't finish many things well.  I start a ton, but don't remain very consistent.  Thank goodness Jesus finished things well.  I pray to finish things well today.  Just for today from this point on.  Not worth it to focus on tomorrow or the sins in the past I have already been forgiven on.  Help me to be faithful today Jesus.
Fran