Day 2

I weighed myself for the last time yesterday around 10am.  I am wondering right now what I weigh.  I don't like knowing, but it is the only way I can trust God.  If I keep relying on the scale, I trust in it instead of my Heavenly Father.  It never satisfies.  God promises that He can satisfy.  I want to know what it means to walk by faith and not by sight.  My life has been full of fail attempts.  I have started so many things, that I have not finished.  One of them is honoring God with how I eat.  When I had my scale, I could make food work for me.  I was consumed with eating, then running off what I ate, then eating some more, then running some more.  Depending on what the scale said, I would be happy or sad.  I would go to events or not go depending on the number.  I would like myself or despise myself.  It affected the way I treated others and myself.  I don't want to live the rest of my life like that.  I just want to be faithful.  How can I eat to honor the Lord?  This is what I think, relatively healthy, small meals with no snacking.  Here I go starting this second step.  First, giving up my scale for a year.  Second, eating to honor God.  We will see how it goes.  On a lighter note, I have been a light ash blonde girl for about 15 years now.  I went back to my natural color today.  It is brown, but you know, I kind of like it.  It symbolizes the change that has to start in my heart.  It is for freedom that Christ has set us free.  Jesus, I want to be free in You.  I love you.
Fran