Day 7a-9a

I just got back from the beach.  I did not have internet access so I could not post on Friday and Saturday.  No scale so far.  I must admit.  I really wanted to use it on Friday.  I ate more than I should have Friday and got fearful.  My baby was up most of the night, and I just felt the stress piling on.  I was almost a little anxious about it to be quite honest.  However, I did not go try to find a scale.  Normally, in the past, I would have found a Target or Wal-Mart and used a scale or bought one and hid it.  Crazy, I know.  I laid in bed that night thinking it is about me making long term healthy decisions that honor God and not giving in to that idol.  I wanted it, but I know God is more powerful.  I woke up the next morning and went on a run for health.  In the past, I would have ran 12+ miles to cover me for the day before.  I didn't even though I wanted to.  I can't live like a yo yo for the rest of my life.  I want to be balanced.  I want to be about my Father's business.  I am really seeking God about what I personally need to do as far as eating.  When I overate in the past, I would turn to my scale to get back down to where I needed to be quickly.  It would usually just take a day or two to get back where I felt comfortable.  This has been a "unhealthy treadmill" that I stay on but can't get off of.  I get nowhere.  I don't digress weight wise, but I don't move forward with my relationship with the Lord.  I want to move ahead and not stay stuck.  Jesus, give me wisdom for the best, healthy food plan that can get my focus off food, diet, scale, etc and onto your kingdom.  I am going to talk to a wise, godly, healthy man tomorrow and run all of this by him to get his take.  Pray for wisdom from this.   One thing I did realize, I spent a lot of time thinking about this over the weekend and hardly no time in God's Word.  First mistake, I know.  Forgive me Jesus. 
Fran