Day 33a-Day36a

I have stayed away from the scales now for 36 days.  That is the longest I have been for about 16 years now.  However, I am still at a place where I could fall any day if I don't lean on the Lord.  I have to be totally dependent on Him with this area, or I know I will fall in a second.  I use to say that I have gained victory, I will never struggle with that again....and then I would fall quickly.  I can say that God is really humbling me in the sense that I KNOW there is no way I can do this without Him.  I have desired it less and less, but I know that desire could sneak back in a second if I take my eyes off of Jesus. Hebrews 12:2, "Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."  Jesus endured to the end.  He endured pain and separation from His Father.  It is overwhelming to know I was his motivation to endure, that you were His motivation to endure.  Jesus, thank you that your love for me kept you on the cross.  You knew there was no other way but you.  Thank you for staying the course.  Thank you that you perfected our faith.  Help me to keep my eyes fixed on you and endure for eternity.  Help me keep an eternal purpose.  Help me love others like you love them and choose you over this world.  You are worth it.  You are in glory now, at the right hand of the throne of God.  I can't wait to praise you for all eternity in heaven.  Help me to start now doing all things for your glory.  Romans 5:8, "But God demonstrated his own love for us in this: While we were yet sinners, Christ died for us."  You died for me because you loved me.  Jesus, please show me what it means to truly love you.  Show me how to truly love other people.  I ran almost 11 miles today.  It was so nice to run just enjoy it.  I was not running to lose weight (because I have no idea what I weigh).  I ran knowing my body is more messed up than it was when I ran my last marathon.  My knees hurt, my hips hurt, but it was great knowing that I am dependent on the Lord for my body to work as well.  I thanked Him for letting me finish this run because it is not easy like it use to be.  This body is wasting away(feeling old :+))....but one day I will have a heavenly body that will last for eternity.  Can't wait for that :+)  Come Lord Jesus!!
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