I realized I went into this new way of eating somewhat prideful, and, "pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall." I thought, I can do this eating, piece of cake. I did not go to the Lord asking Him to be my strength. I was relying on my own strength and this author's strategy. I know now that I can't even take a breath without the Lord. My whole life rests on Him. I can't eat this way without his help. I need to go before Him at each meal and ask for His help. I am a dependent creature on My Heavenly Father. Okay, so I blew it today with my eating. I thought, hey, I have done good the past two days (not even thinking that the past 20 years have been failure after failure on the diet front). I need Him. There is no way I can do this without Him. Romans 8:26, "In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness." Psalm 37:40, "The Lord helps them and delivers them; he delivers them from the wicked and saves them because they take refuge in Him." I have to take refuge in Him. I need to seek Him and put my trust in Him. God and I will continue to walk this journey tomorrow. I am choosing to trust Him and not my scale. I want to live for eternity and not this world. My hope must be in Christ and not how I want things to go my way in this life. It is not about this life. It is about eternity. Psalm 39:4-7, "Show me, O Lord, my life's end and the number of my days; let me know how fleeting is my life. You have made my days a mere handbreath; the span of my years is as nothing before you. Each man's life is but a breath. Man is a mere phantom as he goes to and fro: He bustles about, but only in vain: he heaps up wealth, not knowing who will get it. But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you." This life is so short. Jesus, let me live for eternity. This task seems too big and too hard, but nothing is impossible with you Lord. Continue to break down the strongholds of food and the scales. I want to follow the way of the cross and not the scale. Hard day but good lessons.
Fran
There is no stronger place to be than at the feet of Jesus offering Him our weakness. There is no diet, no "non-diet," no therapy, no Bible study, no plan of action, NOTHING that will "fix" us apart from complete surrender to our Creator. I think this can be a HUGE leap of progress for you in your journey toward freedom. 2 Cor. 12:9 "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." Brokenness, surrender, humility ever moment, all the time. HE is ABLE!
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