Day 18a-Day 19a

Sorry for not writing yesterday.  It was one of those crazy days with football, work, errands, and throwing a quick play date in.  Fun stuff but makes for a crazy day.  I am approaching my eating today with great humility knowing I cannot do it on my own.  I have to be totally dependent on the Lord with each bite I take.  I am excited about going to Him today and asking for His wisdom with the food I eat and how much of it I eat.  2 Peter 1:3, "His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness."  He gives us all we need in this life as we are growing in the knowledge of Him.  Jesus, help me to learn more about you today.  Thank you that you give us all we need for your glory, NOT FRAN's.  You also give it to us because you are good.  You are good.  I was thinking yesterday that the lowest time in my eating was during my first year at Wofford.  I could not control how much I was eating.  I was overeating everyday and it felt out of control.  I was not going to the Lord with it and was trying to "overrun" or make myself throw up.  However, it turned into just plain ole' over eating.  It was a very scary time, and I really felt like there was no hope.....but God (I love the phrase, "but God" because it shows he is about to act in a powerful way).  But God, in his mercy saved me.  He brought me out of that period, set me down in a neat place to learn and grow in Him and have some of the greatest fellowship of my life (Columbia International University).  It wasn't a perfect place but God used it as a true healing time in my life.  It was then that I learned to trust God with my eating, eat when I was hungry and stop when I was full.  Over Christmas during that time, I started following this and lost about 20 pounds over the break.  I had put on some weight at Wofford so that weight came off very quickly.  I began to trust God with my eating.  Over the years, I have slowly turned from trusting God to depending on my scale, running, and diets.  Thank goodness that God is wooing me back to what He taught me before and hopefully, will even take me further.  I am excited about the journey.
Fran