It has been almost three weeks now of no scale, no running, no soft drinks, no fast food by myself or with my kids, and eating regular meals. I can honestly say I have not had a moment yet where I was desperate for any of those things. It has been hard, and I have had to keep my eyes focused, but I am loving this freedom. My hope would be to get to the place where I never WANT to weigh myself again. I do miss running because I do enjoy it. I would hope one day I could do that in a healthy way, but I know today is not that day. I feel stronger every time I pass a fast food restaurant or drink water instead of a coke. I feel like it is one more little step toward freedom. I am taking a math class for fun. It is funny, as I am growing in this area of freedom, I am no longer feeling the pressure to go back to school. I feel like I am start to feel content for the first time in years. No more needing to be in a good degree program, no more needing to weigh a certain weight, no more trying to look put together all the time. I am me. I am the person God wove and knit together. I am wonderfully made for His glory. I want to delight myself in Him. Jesus, continue to make these other things less and less while you become more and more. I am going to the mountains this weekend with some dear friends. They have had crazy times in their lives but they are FAITHFUL followers of Jesus. It is so encouraging to see their faith in the midst of trials. They are such an example to me. I love my sisters in Christ.
Fran
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