New Day

Okay, so I have been taking the past few days to go before the Lord, confess my sin, and think about why I am doing this.  The reason for this journey is to develop a lifelong obedience to choosing God over my scale.  My long term goal is to weigh myself one time a month just to check in and not to use my scale like I have in the past which was several times a day.  I failed on Thursday and was pretty beaten up over it.  However, thank goodness for God's grace.  I don't deserve it.  That one act of disobedience nailed Jesus to the cross.  I want to please Him, but I am human.  I messed up.  I was encouraged by the Lord to repent and press forward, forgetting what is behind and moving forward for His glory.....so, that is what I am doing.  However, with the wisdom of some godly council I have decided to start doing what I want to do for the rest of my life.... having a once a month check in just to make sure I am staying a healthy weight for Christ alone....not too big, not too little.  Letting that be a 5 second check in and moving forward with my walk with Christ.  Once a month, no more, no less....so, that is what I am doing.  I am labeling this Month One.  I want to start now finding a healthy balance with eating and weighing that I feel is what God is calling me to do to keep the focus off of me and on Him.  I am a sinner.  I messed up, but thanks be to God whose mercies are new every morning.  Jesus, help me not to take your mercy and grace for granted.  I am so grateful for it.  I sinned.  Thank you for forgiving me.  Help me not to sulk in defeat.  Help me to move forward walking in your truth and being a light.  I need you not every day but every second of the day.
Fran